Matt was a brilliant musician who played lead guitar or anything with strings. He was suffering from alcohol addiction. It was a secret he never shared. Nobody; us or anyone in his circle, was really aware of it and the depression it brought on him. He was always upbeat. Sure he didn't land a recording contract and he was aging out, but nobody imagined what would happen. I live with the guilt of what I could have done; even though all who know me say I was the world's best father etc etc, but in my mind I failed him somehow. We moved to Orlando to be near him but that apparently wasn't enough to ease his pain. I spoke to him on a regular or what some would think annoying basis but I loved him and he loved me. In fact that was the last thing he told me. He constantly recommended shows to watch or recordings to listen to. We bonded over DC, Marvel, and so much else. His friends and girlfriends were always welcomed in our house. I go over it and over it like a pitcher in a world series who threw a batter a fastball instead of a curve, but I know I will never have the answers I want and need. Life is hard; but life without my Matt is hell on earth for us and will be until it is our time to join him.
Matt; or "Waffles" as he loved to be called, encouraged Tanisha to sing and play acoustic guitar and inspired her when many others didn't want to listen. That was Matt. Always a bright light to the world and a man who had many friends of all races and creeds. He didn't judge anyone.
Tanisha sent us a beautiful cover of this famous song as it’s our first Christmas without Matt. She mentions Matt in her introduction before she plays it and says that she always will anytime she sings the song. This version is a private one she sent me that she recorded in the dressing room during warm up. She's a professional singer now. Currently working stage shows on cruise ships which travel the world.
"Angel" is a song by Canadian singer-songwriter Sarah McLachlan. The song first appeared on Surfacing, the Canadian singer's 1997 album. The lyrics are about the death of Jonathan Melvoin (1961–1996), the Smashing Pumpkins' touring keyboard player, from a heroin overdose, McLachlan explained on VH1 Storytellers. It is sometimes mistitled as "In the Arms of an Angel" or "Arms of the Angel".
"Angel" was McLachlan's second consecutive top-five hit on the US Billboard Hot 100, peaking at number four and remaining in the top ten for nineteen weeks. In McLachlan's native Canada, the song reached number seven on the RPM Top Singles Chart and was the forty-eighth best-selling single of the year. Outside North America, the song has charted in several countries in the years following its release, including reaching number seven in Ireland (in 2002) and number nine in Norway (in 2008).
"Angel" was one of the first songs written for Surfacing. McLachlan said that writing it was easy, "a real joyous occasion", and that "the bulk of it came in about three hours." It was inspired by articles that she read in Rolling Stone about musicians turning to heroin to cope with the pressures of the music industry and subsequently overdosing. She said that she identified with the feelings that might lead someone to use heroin: "I've been in that place where you've messed up and you're so lost that you don't know who you are anymore, and you're miserable—and here's this escape route. I've never done heroin, but I've done plenty of other things to escape." She said that the song is about "trying not to take responsibility for other people's problems and trying to love yourself at the same time".
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